Saturday, June 26, 2004

Room 106


I never expected that a faculty room can be a nice and happy place to stay...


After a year of teaching at the department, I've realized that staying in my faculty room for the past academic year really made my year both as a teacher and a human being.


In our faculty room, a regular school day never passes without my stomache almost aching after having a large dose of laughs, jokes, and antics courtesy of my room mates. They literally clown around, making those punch lines and gestures that make everyone roll into laughter.


You can even learn tons of info about music, trivia, and even jologs stuff, all in a day. Throw in some reminiscenses of the good 'ol days of our lives: the 80's, elementary and high school days, even undergrad escapades. Maalaala mo kaya ang drama, 'di ba?


Another thing worth mentioning is the occasional kainan spree, usually pizza or pancit sa bilao, and the photo-ops that accompany those gatherings. Poses galore!


Speaking of photo-ops, did I say that we have picture-taking sessions even on regular days? Ilalabas nila ang mga digital cameras nila 'pag trip lang nilang mag-kodakan.....


Do the inhabitants of room, if you ask, ever get serious? Well, yes....We have some time discussing school stuff, especially concerning the subjects we teach and the lessons we study in our masters. We compare and share notes, verify facts, critic each others' exams, even pose questions and problems about some things that stump us, like the question on whether or not -8 raised to the 2/3 power is the same as -8 raised to the 4/6 power. We even share some personal stuff and some advice and encouragement once in a while.... Bottom line? We are still serious in our jobs and our lives, you know....


For the past academic year, I realized that I'm lucky to have room mates and colleagues like I have now in our faculty room. Those people have added color to my somewhat fruitful first year of teaching in the department. I've gained a lot from them: happiness, support, guidance, even friendship. I'm thankful to have those people around me....


I remember my former colleague saying this to me before: "pinakamasaya ang faculty room namin" in the whole department....


I couldn't agree more.... ^_^.



P.S.: One thing I'll remember about my room mates was when they supported me and gave me advice during those depression episodes and other concerns, especially the "lecturer letdown" thing. Thanks to you guys! ^_^


Wednesday, June 09, 2004

Reason to Live...Chii ^.^




I just discovered this ending theme of Chobits when I was working on some things at Dizon Tech this afternoon. It has a nice tune, mind you....I even downloaded it along with its karaoke version. Here are the lyrics along with the English translation, courtesy of www.animelyrics.com:



Raison D'etre (Reason to Live)
Artist: Rie Tanaka
Ending Theme From Chobits


Romaji Lyrics:

Minaretamachi sarigenaku arukeba
Tashika ni konome niwa utsuru
Mugure ninatte susumu hitonami ni
Umorete obieteru kokoro

Raison d'etre sonna fuu ni
Raison d'etre onajiyouni
waratte shizunde nagarerunowa naze
kagi wo sagashiterunda zutto sgashiterunda
dokomade mienai? sono door no kagi wo

Kotobayorimo daijina nanika ni
Kizukenai toki wa sugiteyuku
Aizu wo machi oshierarerumama
Sashishimesu bekutoru(vectol)ni mukau

Raison d'etre kyoumo sekai de
Raison d'etre shinjirerunowa
Kasukana hikari to kegarenaki shin no ai
Imi wo sagashiterunda zutto sagashiterunda
Dokomade kienai? sono ikiru imi wo

Hiroku fukai meiro ni mayoitsuzuketerunara
Kumotta Lens wo kagayakasetaraii

Raison d'etre Sonna fuu ni
Raison d'etre Onajiyouni
Waratte shizunde nagarerunowa naze
Kagi wo sagashiterunda zutto sagashiterunda
Dokomade mienai? sono door no kagi wo


English Translation:

The town where everyone sleeps,
If I walk with nothing on my mind,
I can see it
Buried under the advancing crowd,
Is my trembling heart

Raison d'etre, in that way
Raison d'etre, in the same way
Smile, fall silent
Why do my emotions sway?
I'm looking for a key
I've always been looking
I can't see it anywhere
Where is key to that door...

What's more important then words?
The time keeps passing and you can't realize it
Waiting for a sign to be taught like this
Facing the vector that was pointed out

Raison d'etre, in today's world too
Raison d'etre, I believe it
A faint light shining on a real love
I'm looking for a reason
I've always been looking
Where could it have dissappeared?
Where is that reason to live...

I hesitate to continue in this deep labyrinth
The cloady lenses could brighten

Raison d'etre, in that way
Raison d'etre, in the same way
Smile, fall silent
Why do my emotions sway?
I'm looking for a key
I've always been looking
I can't see it anywhere



Wednesday, June 02, 2004

*Sigh*


"Baka po it's time to move on...."

I guess I have to.

I think I must...

Even if it's really painful...even if there's no resolution in sight...even if it will really hurt me that much...

They're right. They don't want to give me false hope. They even feel guilty of helping me because they think they're traitors to their friend.

They can speak of it because they know their friend very well.

And I don't....

If only I have that courage to face this...if only I'm brave enough to accept this....If only I can... If only I can just face her, tell her everything...EVERYTHING...

But I can't... I CAN'T...I don't want to put everyone in trouble...I don't want her to be in trouble...

...and I don't want to earn her ire...I don't want her to despise me...I don't want to be unforgiven...

Sigh...

I feel like a fool, making myself succumb to this...

I feel weak, vulnerable...

Of all people, why her? WHY? WHY?

It's time to move on....