Sumpungin

Sumpungin ako.

'Di ko iyon ikinakaila.

Ilang beses na na rin akong sinumpong ng galit at pagkapikon sa mga nakalipas na mga buwan. May nakagalit ako, may mga kinainisan, at minsan iritable lang ako. Pero sa maraming beses, nawawala kaagad ang aking sumpong at kumakalma agad ako.

'Yun nga lang, sa pagiging sumpungin ko, may ilang nagre-react. May ilang nainis. May ilang kebs lang at pinalipas lang nila.

At ito ang isa marahil sa mga reaksyon sa pagiging sumpungin ko na tumimo sa akin: reaksyon ng isa kong estudyante noong nag-exam sila, na kanyang inilagay sa kanyang blog:

"It was already 7:30 am when the prof arrived. we immediately acknowledged him with a warm greeting. no response. hmm.. maybe he didn't hear. he continued on walking towards the room, grasping for the keys in his pocket. we greeted him again, this time with the other students as well. still no response. what the heck..?! he totally ignored us on purpose! nakasimangot pa! it's as if his alter ego suddenly struggled to surface and successfully conquered his whole being that morning! it's even worse than not being a morning person. when we already settled down, some brave students tried talking him out of his silence by asking him questions like pwede po ba gumamit ng scratch? or ngayon lang po ako magppass ng blue books. but he just snapped back with cranky retorts like bawal ang scratch and kung walang blue book, wag magtest! while we were having the exam, a cell phone beeped. pag nagring pa yan, lahat kayo ma-minus-an ko. and he was dead serious about it. really, it was quite disorienting. the whole faculty room had a heavy atmosphere, despite all the anime posters hanging all over the place. i was easily distracted by him, walking around all the time with a quick and unstable pace. after taking the exam, my friends and i talked about him while looking for a good place to eat. so apparently i wasn't the only one who noticed the peculiarity of our prof. everything about him that time was just so...weird. i guess we wouldn't give this much thought had he been that way ever since we met him. but he wasn't. he was the enthusiastic and youthful teacher whom we were fond of because of his evident passion for his work and willingness to impart knowledge to his students in the best way he can. it was just so not him. funny, my friends and i even tried to recall the events that took place before that time, tracing back if we ever did something wrong along the way that might have pissed him off, but to no avail. *sigh* oh well... i guess there's more to that man than meets the eye.. a lot more."

Nakakagulat. At nakakapanghina rin ng loob.

Kasi, sa pagiging sumpungin ko, marami ang naaapektuhan. Marami rin ang nakakanit, nasasaktan. Kahit pala gaano ka kabait sa kanila, 'pag inatake ako ng sumpong at may naapektuhan, apektado na pati pakikisama mo sa kanila.

Sumpungin ako.

Pero dapat, kontrolin ang sumpong, para laging masaya nag pagsasama.

At pati ako, maging masaya rin. ^_^